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Thursday, 07 May 2009

  • i've been saying i'm stopping this all and i mean it but i always keep coming back.
    But this time it's for real! i think. i haven't eat less than 1000 kcals for a while now and i'm doing well! i did how ever gain all of the weight i lost. i'm back at 125. i still want to weigh 95 but i'll take my time this time. i don't think i'm going to follow a diet or so.. just exercise and eat healthy. Now i'm afraid of counting cause counting makes me want to eat less than 700 kcals a day. i still watch thinpo and stuff...
    maybe i'll reach 95 by 2010 i'm not going to rush or something  because that isn't good for my body i guess.

    i'm not sure that i'll continue posting thinspo's

    i probably continue anyway here are some thinspo

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Sunday, 19 April 2009

  • i'm Fucking dying inside

    i went to my bf today because i didn't see her for a week. i was so happy to see her and then she was telling me about her boyfriend that he sent her a message asking if she still loved him. because they went out with a friend (my ex) and she huged my ex before huging her boyfriend and she didn't hold his hand. She was confused and then she said that she's afraid that she was falling in love with my ex-boyfriend

     i was like What! am i hearing this right. and the we talked about something else later on she said everytime she sees boys she compares them with him. I didn't hear what she said later on. Then i asked her "Please don't fall in love with him? Because it will hurt like hell" i feel sick if i think about it. She knows i still love him but not enough to be together or something like that. i'm so unhappy now. i was so happy today... if they get together i'll probably die. it's like 3 months ago that we broke up we were together for 2 years so. i don't think i can forgive her if she would go with him. I really don't know what to do? everything was going perfect yesterday. why can't everything stay good?

    i want to cry!! ( ok i'm crying)

    i hate this! What do i have to do now? am i going to lose a friend ?
    Please help me. xx

    love you girls !!

Friday, 27 March 2009

  • what i'm going to do

    Hii!! it's been a will
    So since a month or so i've been eating normally because i promised my friends that i would. But my mother made me realise that i'm fat and i don't like to be fat but... pfft...


    why is it so difficult for me just to be happy? why can't i just be satisfied with myself.
    Anyway... Monday i'm going on a school trip until tuesday evening. I'm going to try to eat as less as possible

    then wednesday my mom is going to Ghana for a year so now nobody can tell me to eat more or eat less or not eat or do eat(what really confusses me at times), except my dad but  with my dad it's diffrent.
    If i say i'm going to my friends place to eat he'll say ok. and if i she that to my mom she'd be like why can't you just stay home. if i go to antwerp to shop or something. every time i leave the house she'll complain. i will miss her though. i don't want her to leave i love her and need her, but she sometimes can hurt my feeling so badly!


    i do not know if i'm going to count again. cause if i do, i get carried away... feel bad because i don't want more then 700 kcal in me and so if i don't know how much i ate i feel happy. i guess.


    so from monday going i'm going to start eating less. or maybe today or tomorrow.
    easter holidays are coming. i do not know what i'm going to do yet first i said i would go to my niece but now i'm not sure i want to leave home but if i'm there i can eat less then normal. i'm not going to skip meals though
    I want to eat more veggies or replace most of my food with veggies and fruit. but my allergies won't let me.
    i wish i was allergic to chocolat and biscuites and every thing that fat making!

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Thursday, 26 February 2009

  • could i be thinspo ? ...

    i have been askink my self this question when i saw these pic's of myself. i never realised i looked this way. moto_0832Me

    anyway the only place of my body i really hate are my fat legs they are like huge !! i really don't know how i need to get rid of it! Does some one have some tips or something ??

    some pic's of my cousin and me !! i Really love her ! i'm the one on the right side of the pictures and the on in yellow. enjoy !!
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    Stay strong girls !!

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Tuesday, 17 February 2009

  • i'm stopping this all.

    I told my Ex boyfriend about losing weight and purging and eating less then 800. He Said i had to stop  . so i'm trying to stop. i don't know way but he has a strong influence on me. things he say really care to me. the first day he said to stop i didn't care and ate less then normal but now i guess i'm going back normal .. i haven't gain weight though. i think that's positive. i stopped counting. but i'm afraid i'll become fat so i think i'll go back counting and stuff.

    I hate food. i really do.

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